Mark: Woke up thinking about you, Bianca.  How are you?
I'm at peace with myself today.  6:54 AM

Bianca: Good morning Mark.  I just woke up.  I wish I could sleep in for once.  7:33 AM

Mark: Kiss  7:34 AM

Bianca: Are you at work?  7:34 AM

Mark: Nope working from home.  Could not sleep on my bed last night.  7:34 AM

Bianca: Why?  7:35 AM

Mark: I needed space from my wife to think.  So slept on my sofa.  I could not get to organise my home office to sleep there.  Just did it.  But no I'm not in trouble.  7:36 AM

Bianca: Very good.  Where did you tell your wife you were last night? 7:37 AM

Mark: With one of my friends.  She did not ask who.  It was trivial to be honest. 7:37 AM

Bianca: Perfect.  Darling...I appreciate you sharing with me last night.  Let's please just try to enjoy and live in the moment.  7:38 AM

Mark: Absolutely.  I've made peace with myself.  And that's all I needed. It was very good last night. I enjoyed it thoroughly.  Anyhow. I hope you have an abundant and joyous day. 7:39 AM

Bianca: I had a great time last night.  From the amazing restaurant.  To the conversation.  To our amazing sex. 7:40 AM

Mark: The restaurant was cute, but the company was far better.  And at the moment, when we got to your apartment, I had thought we would just cuddle and have a quiet night together.  7:41 AM

Bianca:  I can't NOT make love to you.  So very sorry.  7:45 AM

Mark: I am unbelievably attracted to you.  Bianca, it's way stronger than myself.  And I am dying to have sex with you au natural.  7:47 AM

Bianca: Me too.  7:59 AM

Mark: I'm certain it'll feel amazing.  7:59 AM

Bianca: What is this insane electric connection?  It's so hot.  8:01 AM

Mark: When I went to my sofa last night.  I imagined if last night when I had my orgasm it had been inside you.  And darling I felt so aroused.  I could not even contemplate the idea of going to my bed.  I needed to let the experience of last night sink in.  Your touch.  We were cuddling and you were running your hand on my back.  And it was giving me shivers up and down my spine

Even this drives me crazy.  May I ask you something?  8:01 AM

Bianca: Yes.  8:04 AM

Mark: Do you have any fantasies that you have yet to explore?
I'm really open minded.  8:04 AM

Bianca:  None that come to mind.  My life is one weird fantasy.  I'm living it daily.  8:04 AM

Mark: And given that I feel safe with you, I'd be happy to try anything you like…8:05 AM

Bianca: What about you?  Tell me.  8:05 AM

Mark: No fantasies. 8:05 AM

Bianca: Oh wait.  There is one.  When you left last night I ate two Oreos...that was a fantasy I haven't made come true in a while. 8:06 AM

Mark: Ha ha ha  8:06 AM

Bianca: What are you going to do with me?  8:06 AM

Mark: I want us to spend a few days in a warm place just having sex, going to the beach and doing nothing else.  Waking up by your side.  8:07 AM

Bianca: I've already told you that my bags and bikini are packed.  8:07 AM

Mark: And you waking me up giving me a blow job.  8:07 AM

Bianca: Yes baby anything for you.  8:08 AM

Mark: Well, I'm dying for that to happen. But we need to find a way of spending longer together next time we meet.  Anyhow, on Wednesday, we'll go to Sleep No More. I hope you like it.  8:10 AM

Bianca: You know I have to tell you.  A week and a half ago...I was up all night.  I couldn't sleep.  I was riddled with anxiety over my future…mainly about money. Really unsure if I’d able to stay in this apartment, pay my bills.  Which is quite honestly why I got on that website.  I figured…what am I really good at?  So I joined.  I couldn’t have imagined this.  8:17 AM

Mark: Bianca, I was just having a shower.   And in the shower it occurred to me.   That I had never asked you how big is the financial hole you’re in.
I mean. I had figured that you would have some form of concern.  I'm not saying that in a negative way.  8:55 AM

Bianca: Like my debt?  8:58 AM

Mark: Yes and what you need to not feel stressed.  Keep your life afloat.  8:58 AM

Bianca: In NYC, my burn rate is typically $10k a month.

Some months I'm ahead, some I'm behind.  8:59 AM

Mark: Ok.  So we need to find a solution.  For your own life.  If we are to be together the last thing I'd like to see is you worried about money.  I appreciate that this is not the easiest of topics. But we do need to talk about it, don't we?  8:59 AM

Bianca: Thank you.  I have made too many poor decisions from a place of financial need.  9:02 AM

Mark: Like?  9:03 AM

Bianca: Well, I got married for starters.  9:03 AM

Mark: That must have been really hard for you.  Ok, I have something important to say. Bianca, now I understand a bit better the situation and I do not want you to be in trouble financially.  We have to be honest with ourselves and have a candid discussion about what you need.  9:05 AM

Bianca: Ok.  9:24 AM

Mark: I understand that what we have found is much better than what we were looking for.  But that does not mean that the issues that brought you to that website have gone away. 9:24 AM

Bianca: I appreciate that.  9:25 AM

Mark: I am not going to run away if you tell me what is needed financially.  And by now you may have realised that I do not promise what I cannot deliver.  9:25 AM

Mark: Dearest Bianca,
Thank you so much for the unforgettable night. I had a truly wonderful time with you. From the moment I saw you sitting at the bar to kissing you goodbye.

I felt immensely connected with you in a way I do not connect with others. This very connection that has always been so elusive in my life is undoubtedly what I have been seeking relentlessly for these almost 41 years. Now that I've realised that I've found it, I thought it was sufficiently important for me to disclose the craziness of who I am. I would like to reiterate my gratitude for the gentle, kind and compassionate way you have handled my fears and insecurity.

After the incredibly passionate sex we experienced today, where both of us felt a profound connection and the sexual tension was lifted from me (I'm terribly sorry, but I desire you above anyone or anything else in my existence), I realised that) I am truly in love with you (this is no fantasy or empty words or some perverse trait of my personality - if you prefer I can say that I really like you so so much) and I) that I am entirely ready to go to any lengths to make this work. That is why I told you what I usually do in my relationships - I manipulate the whole situation to ensure that I will be very hurt. It is only by disclosing this to you that I stand a slim chance of not making the same mistake. I apologise for dumping another complexity of my personality onto you and am immensely grateful to you for your compassion.

Thank you, also, for the reminder that you are neither a challenging mathematical problem nor a puzzle I need to solve. You are indeed something very different - a unique, fascinating, incredibly sexy and seductive woman, whose intelligence, wit and humour have just swept me off my feet. I am a bit lost as this is uncharted territory for your Mark, hence, I beg you to be patient with me.

As you get to know me, you'll realise that there are two Marks- i) the bloke you know, but very few others do - a generous, kind, geeky and clumsy boyish man who lives in the moment and loves taking risks, and ii) the bloke everyone else knows, who is incredibly logical, strategic and sharp when it comes to the matters of the mind, who is unable to express feelings - they are merely a byproduct of his rational thinking. I would like you to know the existence of both and reassure you that I'll leave the latter home.

I also have to start accepting that I may be in a position of deserving you... This will not be easy, but I shall keep reminding myself that this may be the case.

I do appreciate that when it comes to men, you know what to do, how to do it and what to say. I really do, my love, and there is absolutely no need to prove it to yourself and/ or to me this time. You know you can have any man you fancy just by snapping your fingers. It's that easy. I'm begging you, however, just to be yourself with me. There's no need to do anything or say anything that is not entirely reflective of your authentic self. I'm way too involved, in love with you and fascinated by you not to be entirely ready to accept and love you exactly as you are.

If you have made it to this point in the message, the tears of boredom must be already rolling down your cheeks. I couldn't however fail to give myself the chance of reiterating these points to you.

One final point - After tonight I have come to accept that I need not to seek a reason beyond the stars to accept that something edifying and immensely enjoyable is developing between us. And, most importantly, the way I see what we have is that some relationships are simply beyond the concepts of good and evil.

Just remember that this clumsy geeky bloke really likes you and all he wants to do is to bring joy and happiness to your life.

Bianca, you are really special, my love.

I miss you dearly.

Love,
Mark 1:07 AM

Mark: Thank you for tonight.  You are simply indescribable.

Apologies for the melodrama.  I want to be this cool guy, but if I am myself, as I want to be with you, the fact of the matter is that I'm much more vulnerable and fragile than I wished I would be.  You are a very special woman and I do really like you very very much.  I want this to be as I described it to you last week: something edifying and joyous.  10:37 PM

Bianca: As I said when I was climbing on top of you...  you're so cool.  With you it's easy to be myself. And that's what makes you so cool.  So keep being real with me.  That's why I like you.  That's why I'm getting to know you.
Stop trying so hard.  Stop predicting the outcome of all of this.  This isn't a puzzle.  You're highly intelligent.  That's undeniable.  Just let this evolve.   10:40 PM

Mark: Thank you.  I know it isn't just a puzzle. It's my second nature, Bianca. I have to stop analyzing things so much and I will. You are so right.  10:41 PM

Bianca: Let me be your lover and your friend.  I have feelings for you.  But am not going anywhere.  10:43 PM

Mark: I want to be your friend and I feel so close to you.  So close.  10:43 PM

Bianca: I don't expect you to leave your marriage.  I'm just here.   Present with you.   So just be here with me too.  Ok?  Nothing you have told me has scared me off or pushed me away.  10:43 PM

Mark: Absolutely.  Sorry for being so complicated.  10:44 PM

Bianca: Don't be a self fulfilling prophecy.  You predicted tonight that you would try and sabotage things at some point.  That you’d find a way to destroy us and push me away.  I think you can overcome that.  Maybe I’m wrong.  10:44 PM

Mark: I will try to break the pattern.  You are so right.  So so right.  10:44 PM

Bianca: Don't focus on past mistakes.  Don't tell me what happens "every time" with women.  Because then you are basically willing it to happen.  10:45 PM

Mark: I know.  10:45 PM

Bianca: And if that is the outcome you choose, then so be it.  But that's a choice.  Everything is a choice.  10:45 PM

Mark: I'm ashamed of being like that.  Pushing people that are close to me away.  You are right.  I will start accepting that I may deserve being with you.  10:45 PM

Bianca: Stop being so hard on yourself.  I like YOU.
I'm not here because I like your fucking awards and your prestige as a doctor.  10:46 PM

Mark: I know.  And perhaps that is a first in my life.  10:47 PM

Bianca: The man you are when you take your glasses off and laugh with me in my bed.  I love that we can just be ourselves.  Be present with me. Please.  10:47 PM

Mark: I adore it as well.  Thanks for bringing me back.  I am really grateful to you.  10:47 PM

Bianca: At first I was drawn to what you've accomplished.  You know what? Today I couldn't care less.  Sorry to say...but my favorite thing about you?  Is watching you laugh at something silly.  It's the best.  We wear a lot of masks.  But underneath everything you are really fantastic. 10:48 PM

Mark: You are a wonderful woman.  Truly.  I'm stuck for words.  10:50 PM

Bianca: That's fine.  You're not on a stage in front of 8,000 people with the sound not working.  It's just me.  10:50 PM

Mark: You are much more important than those 8,000 idiots.  10:51 PM

Bianca: One week ago, you came into my life and enriched it more than I could have imagined possible.  You are wonderful.  You are not "fucked up".  You have to stop saying that.  Because you're only perpetuating your own cycle.  10:52 PM

Mark: You are absolutely right.  I will focus on the positives. And live in the moment.   That's what's making me happy.  Why should I change it?
Do I want to be where I was 8 days ago?  Fuck no.  10:56 PM

Bianca: Making love to you tonight... Was incredible. 10:58 PM

Mark: It was.  I am flabbergasted with the way you have touched me.  You've touched me in a way that I have not felt before today. Not only physically.  I felt we were vibrating in unison.  Not surprisingly we had an orgasm together. And darling it was so fucking strong.  I’m still dizzy to be honest.

Just had a shower.  I am so madly in love with you Bianca.  I'm sorry but I am.  11:14 PM

Bianca: Baby.  I have much I want to tell you.  I think tonight we really connected.  I could feel it when we were making love.  Just be present.  11:19 PM

Mark: Bianca, I felt exactly the same way.  Close in a rather complete manner with you tonight.  I cannot wait till I see you again…  11:56 PM

Bianca: Good morning my dear.  I can't ever sleep in anymore. 8:34 AM

Mark: The dawn this morning was beautiful.  Why can’t you sleep? What's up?  What's is troubling my gorgeous blonde? 8:34 AM

Bianca: Oh I just wake up and once I'm awake I can't sleep anymore.  Your dream sounded scary.  But maybe a reminder that life is short.   Thank you for not being a boring person. And for not being in the tea party.  8:35 AM

Mark: It was a bit scary. I woke up breathing really heavily.  8:36 AM

Bianca: I wish I could be there to cuddle you…  Last night was actually very fun.  I was happy to steer the night away from anything toxic.  No drugs thankfully. We just had some drinks and some laughs.  8:36 AM

Mark: Very good! I'm so happy for you.  It's great to have friends to enjoy ourselves with.  The way I interpret the dream is related to changes.

Death in dreams is related to changes.  8:41 AM

Bianca: I see.  And maybe letting go a little?  8:42 AM

Mark: In a way akin to the meaning of the card Death in the tarot.  The blue horizon may refer to the job offer on the other side of the pond. And the free fall while I am flying may refer to the notion that I cannot control things that are external to me.  Like our relationship.  8:43 AM

Bianca: Are you considering the job at all?  It sounds like a lucrative offer.  8:46 AM

Mark: No, I'm not considering the offer.  I don't want to live in godforsaken Manchester.  9:04 AM

Bianca: Oh I keep thinking it's in London and not Manchester.  9:05 AM

Mark: If it were in London, I'd perhaps consider it.  9:09 AM

Bianca: I would live in London. I think it's the only city I love more than NYC.  9:18 AM

Mark: Bianca, can I tell you something?  There is nothing that attracts me more to you than the fact that you have come to become yourself in the way you did. I love it. Because it has made you so multi-faceted.  Most Americans are utterly one-dimensional.  And you are not.  Absolutely not.  I find this truly fascinating.  9:39 AM

Bianca: Thank you sweetheart. 9:40 AM

Mark: What were you like in college, by the way?  9:41 AM

Bianca: I loved to party.  Had lots of good friends.  We still keep in touch today.  9:52 AM

Mark: At University, I was the opposite of you. Not popular at all in the med school, but a bit of an anti-hero with the artsy crowd.  And I had a reputation of being incredibly smart.  But absolutely crazy.  I was so arrogant with the professors that they all feared me.   9:54 AM

Bianca: No I don't think I knew that.  But wow, we are very different.  I never paid attention in school.  Or made A’s.  10:07 AM

Mark: It's so cool that we are so different.  Yet, that our paths converged and that we have so much in common anyhow.  10:09 AM

Bianca: I know.  You will not find me ever winning a science award… 10:16 AM

Mark: Why would I want you to do that?  10:17 AM

Bianca: I find your mind to be so fascinating and beautiful, Mark.  10:17 AM

Mark: Bianca, you have emotional intelligence like no one I’ve ever seen.  I've met many people in this life, and someone with your type of EQ and the ability to connect with others is a first experience to be honest.  And the way your warmth gets across right away is formidable.  These are all very precious skills.  And the best part?  You have not had training for that.  Hence it's totally innate. You are very very fortunate, Miss Harper.  And blessed with a gift.  10:25 AM

Bianca: I think the ability to read/ charm people is the key to getting anything you want in life.   Would you agree?  10:27 AM

Mark: And I can tell you, you've charmed this clumsy boy.

In a way that has rendered him completely defenseless… 10:28 AM

Bianca: I really wish we were together right now.  I want to give you a kiss. 10:29 AM

Mark: We will do that later today.  And more, gorgeous…

I'm just so happy. 10:29 AM

Bianca: I know this is about more than the sex...but I really really want you right now.... 10:30 AM

Mark: I'd have loved to wake up with you and make love to you as we cuddle.  It'd have been wonderful.  10:30 AM

Bianca: Every inch of you, taking you into my mouth.  Slowly.  Kissing every inch. 10:31 AM

Mark: Touching you in the morning. Your scent, taste and that laziness that morning brings.  Just snuggling up with you and start whispering some naughty things on your ear.  Kissing your neck.  Feeling that wonderful scent that comes from your skin.  10:31 AM

Bianca: I believe in your world they call those.... pheromones.  I do want to make love to you slowly.  Feel you fucking me gently then harder.  I can't get enough of your perfect cock.  Running my nails down your back as you slide deeper and deeper. 10:33 AM

Mark: You should.  Deep very deep.  Grabbing your waist.
And pulling it towards me. 10:34 AM

Bianca: Your tongue down my throat as we fuck some more.  10:35 AM

Mark: And sliding myself inside and almost out.  Spanking you.  As we do it.  And asking you.  Who do you belong to, Bianca?  10:35 AM

Bianca: Baby... I'm all yours.  10:36 AM

Mark: And I slap you again.  And ask you, fuck me as if you mean it.  10:36 AM

Bianca: Bending over and taking you hard.  Grabbing the pillow.  10:37 AM

Mark: That's my girlfriend.  Exactly as a like her.  10:37 AM

Bianca: Yes baby I'm all yours.  10:37 AM

Mark: I start fondling your breasts while I take you from behind. (I'm in the bathroom at he moment touching myself)
I want you to come on the top of me and fuck me hard. Really hard.  That's all I want, Bianca. That you fuck me. 10:38 AM

Bianca: Rubbing my clit against you hard while you ask me who's a bad little girl? 10:39 AM

Mark: Who is my bad little girl?  I want to be yours.  I want you to use me.  I want you to take off my wedding ring and make me yours. 10:39 AM

Bianca: And I want to cum all over your cock baby.  10:40 AM

Mark: Cum my bad girl.  Show me how bad you are.  Show me.  10:40 AM

Bianca: I'm soaking wet.  10:40 AM

Mark: You are so dirty, Bianca.  Such a dirty little bad girl.  You took off my wedding ring and now you are fucking me into being yours.  And yours only.  (I'm so hard) 10:41 AM

Bianca: I'm playing with my vibrator right now.  10:41 AM

Mark: Good.  Now you are being a good girl.  Touching yourself.   And having an orgasm thinking about us. That's the Bianca I have fallen for.  10:42 AM

Bianca: Darling...I just came so hard.  10:43 AM

Mark: This wonderful and incredibly sexy woman

The hottest woman I've ever been with.  Hands down.  10:43 AM

Bianca: So hard, I wish you could have felt it. 10:43 AM

Mark: Good, my love.  Save some for us tonight.  10:43 AM

Mark: I hope you are alright, Bianca.   Anyhow, I woke up thinking about you, gorgeous.  7:17 AM

Bianca: Hello darling.  I'm all cozy under my duvet.  Hoping to get another hour of shut eye… xoxo  7:39 AM

Mark: Dear Bianca,

I'm delighted to know that you are ok. Marty ought to be a good boy and let you sleep another hour!

I had a good night of sleep, but must confess that you were prominently featuring in my mind.

I also had a strange nightmare, which I would like to share with you: I went to a hospital to visit someone, who I cannot recall right now. The hospital was in a deep valley and there was an incredibly steep and long stair to get there. I visited my friend, encountered many others, upon returning, when I was at the top of the mountain. It started snowing and I realised that I had left my coat behind. So, I decided to return.

The stairs look even steeper and now there were no handrails. And next to it, there were a few trees. When I started going down the stairs, I felt vertigo and decided to jump to see if I could catch one of the tree branches. I could not hold to it and fell into the abyss. Upon falling I realised that death was imminent and that nothing could be done, but I though, this must be a dream. I said to myself, if it is, I can fly. I flew over several trees, but eventually was pulled down to the ground by an incredible force - imagine gravity but amplified many times and hit the ground in a free fall, as if my ability to fly had disappeared.

At that moment I knew I had died. It felt very real. I started seeing things in the way I see them in my mind - as numbers and geometric figures with colours, and started ascending. There was a serenity and peace in the process. I woke up rather unsettled once I reached a sort of dark blue horizon.

I'm not sure as to how to interpret it, but wished to share it with you.

How was your night? I hope you had a wonderful time.

Needless to say that I can hardly wait to see you again soon, gorgeous.

I miss you dearly this morning, as I have been missing every day since I've met you. I do not know what this means and am not bothered by my inability to define it, but it's a yearning that never leaves me and I feel so alive. Thank you so much for being in my life.

Have a wonderful and abundant day and enjoy your massage.

Love,
Mark  8:15 AM

Mark: By the way, have I ever told you that my Italian grandfather was a politician? 7:03 PM

Bianca: Yes you did.  That's very cool. 7:04 PM

Mark: But he has told me all the rotten things and dirty deals that take place in politics. As for my political views, I am what people in Britain call a champagne socialist. I am super lefty.  You guys in America would probably call me a commie. But I love my luxury items and my lifestyle, paradoxically.  7:04 PM

Bianca: Haha oh my conservative father would LOVE you. 7:06 PM

Mark: I believe in free education, health care and a network of benefits for the poorest.   We all have so much - abject poverty makes me immediately cry.  Tomorrow I can only see you at 5:30 because I'll be doing charity work prior to that helping addicts who live in total deprivation now. That's how I keep my sanity.  Helping others who have the same problem but did not have resources to lift themselves out of the mess of their lives. 7:06 PM

Bianca: That’s amazing Mark. 7:08 PM

Mark: It's for a selfish reason, Bianca.  Since I started doing that I feel alive and valued again.   And feel that I am helping others find the same solution as I did.  It's a wonderful feeling.  And by taking the actions I started taking in Jan 2012, my life changed completely.  Had you met me prior to that, you'd have hated me.  I was so arrogant and self-centered.  I despise the man I used to be. And I used people as if they were objects.  And bought everything I wanted in my life, people included.  But for the last 4 years, my life has been the opposite.  I value every being in the world even if others find no value in them. 7:08 PM

Bianca: I think I like you a little more now.  7:13 PM

Mark: You are too sweet.  But it's true, Bianca.  With one exception and one exception only. BORING PEOPLE.  And perhaps tea party members…  7:17 PM

Bianca: :)  7:17 PM

Mark: I miss you so much gorgeous.  7:18 PM

Bianca: I miss you too, sexy.  7:18 PM

Mark: You see how much our relationship has changed in the last 18 hours?  7:19 PM

Bianca: Yes. I do. And I love it.  7:19 PM

Mark: The speed and intensity with which this is happening is wonderful.  I'm loving it too.  And yes, tomorrow, let's just spend time together. Ok?

On a serious note now, have a lot of fun tonight.  If you need anything, you know how to reach me. 7:19 PM

Bianca: Thank you baby.  I miss you mucho. 8:28 PM

Mark: Likewise... 8:28 PM

Bianca: Can't wait to wrap my arms around you.  And my lips.  And my legs.  8:28 PM

Mark: I feel so close to you…faraway yet so close. Have a lot of fun. Kiss! 8:28 PM

Bianca: Kiss kiss baby  8:46 PM

Mark: Dearest Bianca,

I was planning to work till late, however I am afraid I am so jet lagged that I can barely keep my eyes open.

I am afraid I am terribly sorry for your past experiences. I cannot comprehend, in my rather simple way of seeing the world, how a woman as special, intelligent, witty and determined like you, found herself in a situation like the one you've described. It must be a true ordeal to live in a gilded cage and/ or with someone who instead of providing a nurturing environment where your potentials could be realised, only sought to bring you down. I am so terribly sorry for the terrible experience, but I can also see how this has helped you come to become the wonderful woman you are now. As Nietzsche one said: that what does not kill us makes us stronger.

Today I endeavoured to be as transparent as one possibly can and revealed aspects and facts of my life that are unbeknownst to everyone in my life other than you and two other individuals. Revealing them to you neither caused me shame nor triggered a desire to distance myself from you. In fact, after hearing you elements of your story and having a chance of sharing mine, I feel much closer to you and my desire to see you tomorrow, to talk, kiss, cuddle, listen to your jokes, talk about your future plans remains unabated.

I am so excited to see you tomorrow, my dearest. I can hardly wait to see your smile again, feel your scent, steal kisses from you and share laughs with you. You are most special, my love.

I wish you a truly enjoyable and abundant night with your mates. Have a lot of fun, as you deserve it thoroughly.

I miss you dearly, but trust that the joy of seeing you again will more than make up for the void I currently feel now.

Love,
Mark

PS.: I simply cannot stop thinking about you.

PPS: I hope that you do not find yourself in trouble with your mates. Although I will be dozing m/ sleeping, I'll be checking my messages. Should you need anything, and I mean it, please let me know.

PPPS.: My feelings for you feel even stronger today.  Just tell me the spell that you've put on me, because it does work...

Days without you are very very long…11:21 PM

Bianca: I do not want to hurt your wife if she saved your life....will I hurt her? 2:22 PM

Mark: Don't you think she knows about you? 2:22 PM

Bianca: Does she? 2:22 PM

Mark: She has a crazy high IQ.  I arrived at JFK at 11 and home at 2:45 am.  Come on, B... 2:23 PM

Bianca: Women always know. 2:23 PM

Mark: She is next to me and I am texting with you all this time.
Come on. 2:23 PM

Bianca: I knew my husband was up to something when I was married.  But I actually cared.  I remember finding emails in his deleted folder from his ex.  I wanted to know the truth.  And now?  He is dating her.  I always knew. 2:23 PM

Mark: So sad, darling.  Better for me though.  And for us. 2:24 PM

Bianca: I was still hurt when I found out.  I heard that they were dating a few weeks ago actually. 2:24 PM

Mark: Really? 2:25 PM

Bianca: Yes. 2:25 PM

Mark: I'm so sorry.  Did you love him? 2:25 PM

Bianca: I'll tell you the entire story of how we ended someday.  He put me down for years.  Until I eventually censored myself.  And believed that I was not funny or bright.
I started dating Richard when I was broke…kind of lost...low self esteem.  He molded me into a shell of my former vibrant self.  I allowed it all to happen.  I wanted to pursue a career in comedy.  He told me don't bother, you're not really that funny. Mark, when you laugh at my jokes it is music to my ears...  And now I'm finally able to tune out his negative voice in my head telling me I can't do something. There's more to the story but I'll tell you all another time.   2:25 PM

Mark: Darling.  That's so incredibly sad.  I hope that I can help you connect with the beauty you have inside.  Because you are truly beautiful and funny and witty.  Look, I think we can be very good friends and that we can help each other in many ways.  I'm so happy to have met you.  Don't judge him for being unable to see his problems.  We only see them when we reach rock bottom, as Camus and Sartre and the other existentialists say in their philosophy.
I reached mine.  2:46 PM

Bianca: I don't judge him. I don't hate him.  To me, he doesn't exist. 2:49 PM

Mark: And that's why you’re open to new experiences.  Otherwise you'd be living in a cage of your own making.  You are free now, Bianca.
Constrained by some of your fears, yes.  But freer than you've ever been before. 2:50 PM

Bianca: Life without him is…breathable. 2:50 PM

Mark: Splendid.  We need to do some crazy things together
Then you'll feel even freer. 2:51 PM

Bianca: Crazy?  Do tell.... 2:51 PM

Mark: I'm still trying to get to know you a bit more. What makes you tick.  Then we will choose some crazy things to do together.  Do you like extreme sports or experiences? 2:52 PM

Bianca: Hmmm.  Not really. 2:53 PM

Mark: I enjoy a few things of that nature. I'm scared of heights so I go paragliding.  What I am saying is that empiricism is a great way to counteract our fears.  Experiencing things that we fear the most in a controlled way is one of the best antidotes for our fears. 2:53 PM

Bianca: Mark, tomorrow night? 3:01 PM

Mark: Yes? 3:01 PM

Bianca: Lets just take things slowly.  Kiss for a while. 3:01 PM

Mark: We do not need have sex.  Let's just cuddle and enjoy. 3:01 PM

Bianca: Last night felt a little rushed.  Which is part of why I couldn't relax totally.  Anyhoo, need to run out now. Miss you Mark…3:02 PM

Mark: I am craving for you, baby.  By the way, tomorrow.
There are no expectations from my part.  If I just have dinner with you and see your face I'll be happy.  Now that you know so much about me, I just hope that you'll not get too scared. 3:19 PM

Bianca: Mark.  The only way I will get scared, is if you do anything to hurt me. 3:23 PM

Mark: That's out of question. 3:24 PM

Bianca: Then we are good… 3:24 PM

Mark: Bianca, I was just thinking about you gorgeous.  I'd never objectify you or treat you like a Barbie.  But can't you be my princess at times?  5:42 PM

Bianca: Yes, baby.  I'm excited to be your girlfriend tomorrow night at dinner.  Nibbling on your ear... 5:42 PM

Mark: Darling, I'm dying to experience that. 5:48 PM

Bianca: I think it’s so sweet and generous how every time we meet you bring me a little present. I really love this Dior perfume. 5:50 PM

Mark: Cute.  Darling, I do see you as if you were my girlfriend.
And I mean it.   6:34 PM

Bianca: It's great that you opened up to me.  I'm so sorry to hear about your childhood. 1:55 PM

Mark: And then I lived independently from 15.   Do you understand now why I have safety concerns?  My father wanted to kill me, my mother fancied me. 1:56 PM

Bianca: Of course.  Can I ask you something?  1:56 PM

Mark: Yes.  1:57 PM

Bianca: Do you feel safe with me?  1:57 PM

Mark: Yes. I have told you so.  1:57 PM

Bianca: Good. 1:57 PM

Mark: That Tuesday when you were lying on my chest
I felt secure.  And I was lying on your bed last night, I felt secure.  There was only one moment I did not.  1:57 PM

Bianca: When?  1:58 PM

Mark: When I was by your bedside table I felt a bit funny. I was going down on you and felt funny. I'm not sure why.  1:58 PM

Bianca: Why?  1:58 PM

Mark: No idea. I think in my mind I processed that there was something that was not quite right with you last night.  Something that you were trying to keep to yourself.  But was making you a bit distant.  1:59 PM

Bianca: I actually felt very awkward to be honest.  Because Marty was biting your feet.  And I was nervous having you over for the first time.  Honestly that is exactly what was going thru my head.  2:00 PM

Mark: Ok.  Anyhow.  2:00 PM

Bianca: I swear.  2:00 PM

Mark: But yes.  I feel safe and secure with you.  2:00 PM

Bianca: I felt bad that I was so distracted.   There was a combo of things last night honestly.  2:01 PM

Mark: And then this year, after am several EMDR sessions, I remembered that I was inappropriately touched by my mother…
Anyways, last night was fun.  And served as a catalyst for us to open up with each other.
Sometimes these nights prove to be more important than the ones that go to plan.  2:01 PM

Bianca: Or the ones that are perfect.  Like Tues night, which are fun.  But don’t move us forward.  2:02 PM

Mark: Absolutely.  2:02 PM

Bianca: Thank you for opening up to me.  That cannot be easy for you. 2:03 PM

Mark: Let's take it one day (or night) at a time. 2:03 PM

Bianca: Yes. 2:03 PM

Mark: It is easy with you to be honest.  I feel safe.  And I want to build something meaningful with you.  Without being transparent how can I achieve that?  2:03 PM

Bianca: You're making it much easier for me to be honest.  I've never really been anything to men other than a pleaser or a Barbie doll.  2:03 PM

Mark: But you are so much more than that, Bianca.  2:03 PM

Bianca: So removing the layers is really really hard for me.
Be patient with me ok?  2:04 PM

Mark: Because we have much in common and you are so bright.  2:04 PM

Bianca: I put up walls.  I never want to be hurt.  So I turn emotions off and put up walls.  2:04 PM

Mark: Of course.  But when we try too hard we end up being hurt.  I reckon we can enrich each other's lives substantially.  I will not hurt you.  2:04 PM

Bianca: I know.  You're teaching me how to open up. Patiently.  Was there any trouble with you getting home so late last night?  2:08 PM

Mark: No. Not at all.  My wife is like a sister.  To be perfectly honest.  2:13 PM

Bianca: Really? 2:13 PM

Mark: She saved my life though and I am so grateful to her.  That's why we are together.  2:13 PM

Bianca: She did?  How?  2:13 PM

Mark: Yes. I had made a conscious decision to take my life in 2012.  2:14 PM

Bianca: Omg.  2:14 PM

Mark: And then she saved me without knowing what she was doing. And showed me compassion to a point I had never experienced before.  2:15 PM

Bianca: I had no idea.  2:15 PM

Mark: As I told you, I was living a crazy life.

Married, travelling around the world on first class flights, 5 star hotels, but killing myself by having crazy experiences.  And I was so ashamed of myself.  And so guilty that I thought that there was no reason to keep on going.  I bought a hand gun in Argentina . I was going to lecture there on March 12th and I was getting the job done on 13th.  2 months before, after I had sorted out everything, I decided to tell my wife who I really was.  And I was hoping that she was going to call me a monster and kick me out.  So it would be easier to get it done.  She looked at me in the eye and said, Mark, I know where you come from and what you've been through.

And said that I needed help.  Took me to therapy and rehab and to Buddhism.

Now you know all about me, Bianca.  2:17 PM

Bianca: Thank you for sharing.  I feel closer to you, Mark.  2:19 PM

Mark: I have helped sort her life completely. She is an awarded chemist nowadays.  2:20 PM

Bianca: You are a good man. 2:20 PM

Mark: As you can see, from the outside my life looks uber cool.  But there's more to it.  Nothing is perfect.  No one.  2:20 PM

Bianca: Everyone has something hiding under the surface.  We can’t ever compare ourselves to other people.  2:20 PM

Mark: And with you, I feel I can share that.  No, you are right.
I only look for what I have in common with others nowadays. What I can relate to.  2:20 PM

Bianca: True.  It’s the only real way to connect.  2:21 PM

Mark: Yes.  I really adore you my gorgeous blonde.  2:21 PM

Bianca:  I adore you. 2:22 PM

Mark: Now you and my wife and my therapist are the only ones who know all of this.  2:22 PM

 

Bianca: Now I feel like I fucked up a bit...Mark...there's just so much I could tell you to make you understand me a bit better.  2:21 AM

Mark: You should tell me.  I really want to understand you better, Bianca.  2:22 AM

Bianca: When I was 26, I had an affair with a married man.
It was an entirely different circumstance. But it ended terribly.  2:22 AM

Mark: What happened?  2:23 AM

Bianca: It was awful...He was in love, wanted to leave the wife for me.  He promised me the world.  When the time came and we were "caught" he backed out, stayed with her and left me totally humiliated.   They are still married 11 years later.  Unhappily.  2:23 AM

Mark: I'm so sorry, Bianca.  Ok…First of all, it takes two to tango.  Hence it was not your fault.  Second, 95% of the affairs end up with the husband going back to the wife.  Third, you were very young.  Fourth, you tried - I'm certain that the ending was horrible.  Hence the odds were stacked up against you.   2:24 AM

Bianca: Yes definitely. 2:26 AM

Mark: But I'm certain that you also had good moments.  Or am I wrong? 2:26 AM

Bianca: We had the best 2 months of my life.  I don't know if when you say you are falling for me, if it's lust or part of a fantasy for you...I'm afraid to awaken my heart only to have it crash right into a wall.  Again.  2:27 AM

Mark: Do I look like I am a fantasy? 2:28 AM

Bianca: No.  2:28 AM

Mark: So, the two of you had great moments. You lived them together. Be happy for them. Those who do not understand it, will never.   I am falling for you and it is real.  But I appreciate that this may be too much for you, Bianca.  And that's absolutely fine.  I respect your space and your wishes.  It's great we talked today.  You are a very special woman.   2:28 AM

Bianca: It's not too much for me...in the beginning you and I just had an arrangement.  We can just press restart on Sunday.  I am fine.  I want to keep seeing you. 2:31 AM

Mark: What do you mean about pressing restart?  What you are seeing now is the rational Mark, who everybody knows.  That's how I am for 99.99% of the world.  2:32 AM

Bianca: I am falling for you....but I am a big girl.  And I can separate my feelings.  And contain them.  And have an arrangement.  And still see you.  And enjoy every minute as we have so far.  I'm sorry that I was so off tonight.  It's all been an intense week. I wouldn't change anything though.  2:33 AM

Mark: Bianca, you know how I feel.  I'm not going to hold back. 2:35 AM

Bianca: I'm not either.  2:35 AM

Mark: If we keep seeing each other, I just beg you not to hurt me deliberately.  I will not promise what I cannot deliver.  Even when I'm on cloud nine. 2:35 AM

Bianca: I promise. 2:36 AM

Mark: I may be socially awkward at times, but I read people without thinking. 2:36 AM

Bianca: And what are you thinking now?   2:36 AM

Mark: That I want to see you happy.  No matter what the price is.   Be it taking it forward as we were.  Or not seeing you anymore. 2:37 AM

Bianca: The latter makes me sad.   Not happy. 2:38 AM

Mark: I just don't think that at this stage, the way I am feeling, I could have a mere arrangement with you.   I'm sorry to say that. 2:38 AM

Bianca: What do u mean by that? 2:38 AM

Mark: Just money and sex.  I will not be able to connect with it.  Sorry. 2:39 AM

Bianca: I don't want that either.  But I have to ask.  What was it you were looking for in the first place? 2:40 AM

Mark: What I had with my former arrangement. 2:41 AM

Bianca: Love?  Sex? 2:42 AM

Mark: It was nothing to do with this.  It was different.  We had feelings for one another, but nothing like this.  Never.  I've not felt this way, in years. 2:42 AM

Bianca:  I’m definitely falling for you.  I know you need to go…2:43 AM

Mark: Why? 2:44 AM

Bianca: Because you are almost home. 2:44 AM

Mark: I'm home already. 2:44 AM

Bianca: Oh. 2:44 AM

Mark: You are my priority, Bianca. 2:44 AM

Bianca: Are you in trouble for getting home so late?  2:44 AM

Mark: I am not in trouble.  And if I am, that’s my problem, darling.   I just want you to know that what I have shared with you so far is very real and not a fantasy.  I told you when we met that I did not know exactly what I was looking for.  And I was going to keep an open mind.  Remember?  What I have found with you is much more than what I had bargained for.  2:46 AM

Bianca: I remember.  Do you still want to see me? 2:49 AM

Mark: Bianca.  All I want is to be with you.  I was just trying to give you space to walk away if that was what you wanted.  2:49 AM

Bianca: I don't want to walk away from what we have. 2:50 AM

Mark:  But please, let's not use each other as objects.  Ok?  2:50 AM

Bianca: This relationship is anything but traditional and conventional.  It doesn't fit in any box.  And I reckon I shouldn't try to find one that it can be shoved into.  I don't see you as an object.  And I don't feel like one.  Can we get back to living in the moment?  2:51 AM

Mark: Yes, you are right.  Let's do it.  I'm sorry I asked what was wrong today.  But today you seemed different.  2:55 AM

Bianca: I know.  I’m ok.  Glad we talked. 2:56 AM

Mark: Good.  For me nothing has changed.  Not at all. But please.  Talk to me when things of this nature happen.  I'm here to listen.  And just be honest with me. 2:56 AM

Bianca: Always.  I'm fading.  Get some sleep, Mark.  2:57 AM

Mark: I'm going to try, but am so jet lagged.  Slept on the plane for two hours.  Get some sleep, gorgeous. 2:58 AM

Bianca: Good night xo. 2:59 AM

Mark: Good night.  Sweet dreams my love.  Just understand how much I want to be with you.  3:00 AM

Mark: Dearest Bianca,
I hope that you had an enjoyable dinner.

I am here on this plane, longing for you, in a rather visceral manner. I have been re-reading our messages.

Your contention is that we are very different. Yes, we indeed are. You do read the Post, have an incommensurable desire of being famous someday. You also have an emotional intelligence that has taken me aback, have a way of making anything and everything you touch immensely interesting to me, a wicked sense of humor and the ability of being witty at the right time. You are also incredibly resourceful, versatile and incredibly thoughtful. In addition, you have something mysterious about you, something that draws me to you in an uncontrollable manner. Even if I used all my mental faculties, I could never solve you as a puzzle, as I am too fascinated by it, too mystified by it, too much involved to be able to conjure up the energy and focus to try and solve it. You have an angelic beauty that is simply disarming. Your blue eyes, oh your blue eyes where I lost myself for so long on that Tuesday. And your smile just brings me down to my knees.

We may indeed be different, but can't we celebrate our differences and accept that wonderful things sometimes follow principles that we are unable to comprehend?

Having said all that, what do I do then?  Other than stand in front of you and admit that I have fallen in love with you despite the fact that I've only seen you twice? Can't your see that you have what I have been seeking for so long? As I told you, I did not know what I was looking for - now that I have found it, it's truly self evident.

You are indeed absolutely right. We are very different. I'm just a loner. One who happens to be very famous in his field but prefers anonymity, one who has been seeking a reason beyond the stars to justify his existence. After Tuesday, I feel that the crazy things I've experienced in my life have been redeemed and that the future irrational decisions I may take would be justified. We are different in that an absolutely rational and logical man stands here in front of you just prepared to live life based on his feelings and intuition, is prepared to accept that his future started afresh last Sunday, and is prepared to accept that he can be happy, even if this happiness is short-lived.

My dearest Bianca, just understand that I accept you exactly as you are, that I adore you exactly as you are, and that the reasons you have provided about our differences will not dissuade me from falling madly in love with you. I was afraid that this would happen, and it is happening. Now that it is, I will only enjoy every second of it, as I would never forgive myself if I acted in a cautious and restrained manner. This is too rare and too precious no to be enjoyed to its fullest extent.

You are special and unique. No matter what you think, please remember that at all times.

Love,
Mark

P.S.: I have just landed and my desire of seeing you, even if for minute has not been abated.

P.P.S.: The flight arrived super late. Of course I'd understand if you could not make it tonight. I still have to go through immigration and come from JFK to Manhattan. There is absolutely no pressure whatsoever. If that's the case, I'll keep counting the minutes till Sunday. By the time this message reaches you, it should be around 2,530 minutes until then...11:15 PM

Bianca: :) Please do come and see me.  I lit some candles and even had a cappuccino in anticipation of your lateness. Take your time...no rush. 11:21 PM

Mark: Ok. I'll definitely come.  I could not stop thinking about you.  I will not have much time, but I just want to see you.  11:24 PM

Bianca: Are you thru immigration yet? :)  11:29 PM

Mark: I'm just so crazy about you.  Still on the plane.  11:29 PM

Bianca: No rush. I'm not going anywhere.  I may have to make love to you… 11:34 PM

Mark: Finally got off the plane.  The queue in immigration is ridiculous. So frustrated.  I'm dying to see you.  11:41 PM

Bianca: Relax dear. You'll see me soon. Take your time... After all, I've only been waiting 31 years for you…  What's another hour?  11:59 PM

Mark: Bianca, my gut instinct is telling me that I should trust you and be myself.  And I am glad that I did.  And I do.  1:41 PM

Bianca: But here’s my concern…We are so very different:
I read the NY Post/you read the NY Times
I have a naughty sense of humor/ You're a bit more high brow
Are you certain I'm your dream girl?  I'm very attracted to all those things in you....I hope you still feel the same when I continue to be myself.  Because I don't know another way to be.  1:44 PM

Mark: Darling, can love be defined on these terms?  1:48 PM

Bianca: No...  I suppose not.  1:48 PM

Mark: I'm a rational person. Logical matters are more forte. I would never ever seek to apply logic to this, as what I feel for you transcends it.
And yes, you are my dream girl.  Whether you like it or not.  And as I have mentioned in my previous message, there is so much I can learn from you and with you.  And that's how I feel.  1:57 PM

Bianca: I agree.   I only fear getting hurt...a little.  I didn't know how much I'd like you.  I'm sure you can understand this.  2:15 PM

Mark: Of course I understand your fear, Bianca.  Trust my actions not my words.  2:19 PM

Bianca: I will.   2:23 PM

Mark: I know you hate being in a vulnerable position.  You've always been told to be the opposite.  Others have hurt you.  I miss you so much
Boarding my other flight.  Queuing and just wishing I could see you tonight.  2:25 PM

Bianca: Have a safe journey.  Wish I could see you too…Bye for now.  2:27 PM

Mark: You are not getting rid of me so easy.  2:27 PM

Bianca: Haha  2:27 PM

Mark: I'd be crazy enough to come to wherever you are tonight just to give you a kiss, Bianca.  2:28 PM

Bianca: I will be on the Upper East side actually.  Around 9 or 10.  But that would be too early no?  2:28 PM

Mark: I arrive at 10:45.  But would go anywhere to see my Bianca.  2:29 PM

Bianca: I might still be in the area.  Would you want to meet for a quick cocktail at the Carlyle?  Let's play it by ear... 2:30 PM

Mark: Ok As soon as I land, I'll send you a message 2:30 PM

Bianca: Sounds good darling.  I can't wait for a kiss. 2:34 PM

Mark: Neither can I.  I mean it. I can go anywhere just to give you a kiss.  On the plane finally...Phew 2:38 PM

Bianca: You can relax now, get a nap... 2:39 PM

Mark: Please don't feel pressured to meet up tonight. 2:39 PM

Bianca: Flying first class? 2:39 PM

Mark: Always 2:39 PM

Bianca: Just wanna wrap my lips around your hard..........
Sorry sorry I know you're on the plane I'll stop being so naughty. 2:41 PM

Mark: Well.... After that text I think I will have a long journey tonight…
No, please don't control yourself.  I love you being naughty.  Very naughty.
I love it.  I can imagine us in first class, lying side by side.  Going to London.  And me fingering you when the lights are out.  2:43 PM

Bianca: It's easy in first class…2:44 PM

Mark: Yes. This has been on my mind since we talked about going to Brussels or London together.  You are bad, Bianca.  This convo is killing me.  2:44 PM

Bianca: You love it… Especially when I am on top of your cock.
Is the flight attendant wondering why you are piling extra blankets on your lap right now?? 2:47 PM

Mark: I have the pillow.  2:48 PM

Bianca: Hard?  2:49 PM

Mark: And there is a window that separates me from the other passengers.  I am very hard.
Darling.
All I want is you being your seductive self.
Fucking me senseless
Making me be yours
And yours only
As you did on Tuesday
Since then
My sole thought is you
As my girlfriend and the person I'm in love with
But also as the sexy girl who fucked me senseless
And then you come on the top of me
Tell me to stop talking.  2:49 PM

Bianca: To shut the fuck up. 2:52 PM

Mark: And slide my cock, as hard as it is now.  Inside you
Rubbing your clit against me
Remember when you gave me head? Did you see how much under your spell I was?
I wanted to lick you now
Feel your taste and your scent
The best ever
I have never felt so good
As when I was kissing and licking your pussy
You taste amazing
And your scent......
As it was an extension of my body
Wonderful
Indescribable.  2:52 PM

Bianca: I loved giving you head.  Your cock in my mouth.  I want to finish you off and taste you soon.  2:57 PM

Mark: Would you do that? 2:58 PM

Bianca: Yes of course. 2:58 PM

Mark: You want to kill me, don't you? 2:58 PM

Bianca: Not the goal no. 2:58 PM

Mark: Lol.  Just don't disappear, Bianca.  You are too good to be true. 2:58 PM

Bianca: Stop. 2:58 PM

Mark: You are, I have not felt the way I am feeling now
I am in this pink cloud.  Just wanting to vanish from here and turn up by your side
You have me on my knees.  And you know it…2:59 PM

Bianca: Can't you invent a teleporter in your spare time? 3:00 PM

Mark: I have got to. But first, in my spare time, I want to try and help an amazing woman get where she wants to be in her life. 3:00 PM

Bianca: Just do me a favor, Doctor.  Just be my friend.  3:02 PM

Mark: Bianca, that's how I see you.  3:02 PM

Bianca: That to me is more important than the money.  3:02 PM

Mark: That's what I want to be.  If I thought that this was all about the money to you, do you think I would be behaving this way?  3:02 PM

Bianca:  I do appreciate the money you provide me, but you mean more to me than that.  3:03 PM

Mark: I understand the rules of an arrangement, Bianca.  And understand that what we have found transcends what we were looking for. Do I think I would have confided to someone I did not care about the fact that I am a sex addict in recovery for 4.5 years?  3:03 PM

Bianca: No and I appreciate you confiding in me.  And you made it clear from day one that this wasn't just about the sex.
Although, side note...that part of it is just coming naturally
And it's mindblowing.  3:04 PM

Mark: I am certain that we will not tire from each other.  3:06 PM

Bianca: Can I kiss you at Piora?  Or need to be careful? 3:06 PM

Mark: Would you kiss your boyfriend there?  3:07 PM

Bianca: Yes   3:07 PM

Mark: You have carte blanche.   What are you doing the night of the 30th?  3:07 PM

Bianca: No plans yet. 3:08 PM

Mark: Do you want to spend the night together? 3:08 PM

Bianca: Sure.  Why the 30th?  3:08 PM

Mark: Because I have to attend a retreat on 30th and may have to stay a day longer.  3:09 PM

Bianca: Where is the retreat?  3:09 PM

Mark: Not sure where the retreat is yet.  Look, on Sunday or Wednesday, when we have a few minutes, let's go throw my diary and choose the trips to go together. 3:11 PM

Bianca: Yes.  Lets.   3:11 PM

Mark:  You are simply formidable
Truly.  I love every second of you.  My flight is so delayed here
I shall let you know as soon as I arrive.  3:13 PM

Bianca: Ok lovey. 3:19 PM

Mark: It's so good to be feeling this way.  Thank you so much.  You deserve anything you want gorgeous. I know you have lots to do.  Don't want to hold you.  3:19 PM

Bianca: Ok baby....safe flight. 3:21 PM

Mark: Just please understand something: everything I am expressing to you is very real and I am being totally vulnerable.  Don't trust my words but instead trust my actions.  3:21 PM

Bianca: I do. 3:22 PM

Mark: And rest assured that this clumsy boy who is typing this message would die without your smile. 3:22 PM

Bianca: Missing my doctor. Gotta dash to a meeting now.  Xoxo  3:24 PM

Mark:  Dearest Bianca, I will miss you for the next few hours. Have a terrific time at your dinner. Kiss, my love. 3:25 PM

Bianca: Kisses.  I can't wait to see you soon.  3:27 PM

Mark: Taxing out now..... Kisses gorgeous. See you soon. 3:33 PM

Bianca: Love, let me know when you land.  I had a great dinner with a most interesting lady.  You'll probably take a bit of time to get through customs so I decided to head back to Tribeca, instead of sticking around the Upper East. You are welcome to come to my place… 9:40 PM

Mark: I’ll be thinking about you on my flight…
By the way, what's your favorite fragrance or one you really wanted to have? 12:07 PM

Bianca: Hmmm.....actually....I always liked Miss Dior 12:17 PM

Mark: Perfect ;)  I was thinking about what you have confided to me about having three orgasms in one evening with me. I think that the counterpart for me is that on Tuesday, it was the first time in years where I was with someone and did not feel lonely... It felt so incredibly special.  I feel bad for saying that, but I am being honest with myself. 12:19 PM

Bianca: Don't feel bad.  I love it.  Thank you for telling me that.  I wish you hadn't felt lonely in the past.  12:21 PM

Mark: Likewise, you deserved much more from your past experiences. I will not, however, regret my past or shut the door on it. Rather, I will do my utmost to make you happy.  And for you to realize the wonderful potential that you have in life, Bianca. 12:22 PM

Bianca: Life is complicated.  Sometimes we need a special person to make it easier and better.  I’m so glad I met you.  By the way, we were talking about my career earlier.  Did you know it’s always been my dream to pursue a career in TV?  I started but gave up the dream a few years ago. 12:22 PM

Mark: Why? 12:26 PM

Bianca: It's a long story.  I wanted to pursue a career in tv and was going to take stand up and improv classes in my late twenties. 12:27 PM

Mark: Yes. 12:27 PM

Bianca: I do love the interior business though and I believe I can grow both simultaneously. 12:27 PM

Mark: Bianca, if you do have a TV career, it can be the catapult indeed. 12:28 PM

Bianca: I want to catapult a kiss on your lips right now. 12:29 PM

Mark: That's all I wanted to do at this very minute.  And all the time since Tuesday. 12:29 PM

Bianca: This evening I'm having dinner with a woman who went to my high school.  I don't really feel like going, I'd rather stay in and watch a movie. 12:32 PM

Mark: Ok... So why are you going? 12:33 PM

Bianca: She is an accomplished author, philanthropist and I think she might be an interesting connection.  NYC socialite.  Page 6 girl, very cool lady. 12:33 PM

Mark: Perfect.  Then you ought to go.  Sometimes these things need to be done. 12:33 PM

Bianca: Yes I know.  I pictured you telling me that actually and decided to keep my plans with her. 12:34 PM

Mark: Just make the most out of it.  Sometimes in these meetings we bump into interesting opportunities. 12:34 PM

Bianca: I can't wait to have your tongue all over my body....12:35 PM

Mark: Going to take off soon... I'm missing you desperately. It's a visceral thing. 12:35 PM

Bianca: Sorry I'm just distracted. 12:35 PM

Mark: Kiss gorgeous! 12:38 PM

Bianca: Xoxo 12:39 PM

Mark: Hi Bianca,

I have just landed at Heathrow. It's been an eventful evening, but during this whole process my thoughts have been 100% focused on you.

You are so right in that the universe is somehow trying to convey a message to both of us. I feel that I have an awful lot to learn from you in so many ways. It's funny how I am always careful about being myself with others; with you, this has been natural and I have an uncontrollable desire just to be myself with you as I do trust you. And I have an unshakable certainty that this is the beginning of a life changing experience.

There is something rather awkward that I would like to tell you: I do not want you to feel like the 'other' woman. Despite the circumstances, I believe that you can feel that you simply aren't. Rather, the way I see you is the dream girlfriend who I thought I would never have a chance of meeting in my life and finally did.
I just beg you to be patient with me. Sometimes my befuddled mind plays tricks on me, and I may need your advice about some issues - how I should feel or what I should do. I hope that it would be ok to ask you these questions, as your emotional intelligence is so much higher and more developed than mine.

That was a good question when we were having a chat today: how will we make it to Sunday? I'm counting the seconds and all I want to do is to be with you. If I could, what I would do was to stop by wherever you were this evening after I land at JFK.   Just to give you a kiss. It's something that is truly beyond me.

At the end of the day, I'll have only a few hours in London, as the flight from Manchester was so incredibly delayed.

I miss you so much, my dearest Bianca.

Love,
Mark 1:30 PM

Mark: Hello Bianca...do you want me to book a hotel for us on Sunday?  10:01 PM

Bianca: Or you can just come to my place…10:01 PM

Mark: Would you be happy with the latter? 10:01 PM

Bianca: Yes I would. 10:01 PM

Mark: That would mean so much to me, Bianca.
I'd be honoured to come to your place.  And let's choose a cute place for us to have dinner together. Tribeca or Soho, correct?  10:02 PM

Bianca: Yes....I'll make you a deal.  Because we have the best arrangement ever.  I'll take care of the accommodations, you choose a restaurant?  10:04 PM

Mark: Ok.  Perfect.  You are an angel.  Can I ask you something?  10:04 PM

Bianca: Yes of course.  10:06 PM

Mark: Is it bad that I feel a tad possessive about you?
I mean, I want you all.  Every bit of you…  10:06 PM

Bianca: Well....I think it depends what you do with those feelings.  If you channel them into positive thoughts and actions, it’s not bad.  10:08 PM

Mark: They are channeled into desire.  Not jealousy. I reckon I did not use the correct word. I did not mean possessive. The correct word was lust.  10:09 PM

Bianca: All men are a tad possessive, no?  Biology.  10:10 PM

Mark: No, to be honest, I have never been possessive of anyone.  You are so cute, Bianca.  10:11 PM

Bianca: As are you.  I miss you.  So much.  Looking forward to your kisses and much much more.  10:12 PM

Mark: To be perfectly honest with you, Bianca, I have never ever been possessive of others.  If you feel like devoting some time to me, I should be grateful for that time.  Whatever you do at other times, it's absolutely your choice.  And your choice alone.  I did not express myself correctly in the previous message about feeling possessive.  10:12 PM

Bianca: I know, I know.  Sometimes text doesn't convey exactly the right message.  Its ok.  I’m still smiling.  10:14 PM

Mark: Same here. I'm so incredibly happy. 10:14 PM

Bianca: Still on cloud nine.  Isn't it nice up here?  10:15 PM

Mark: And have you seen the number of wonderful things that have happened to me over the last few days?  I take those as an omen.  As for cloud nine, absolutely.
Kiss, gorgeous.  When I texted you today at 6ish pm my time, I was encased by that pink cloud. I still had 2 meetings but could ONLY think about YOU.  10:15 PM

Bianca: Wish I could fall asleep in your arms.  Kiss kiss kiss... By the way…has anyone ever told you that you look a bit like Tobey Maguire? 10:17 PM

Mark:  Haha I’ve heard that a couple times before... I'll just close my eyes and dream about you until I see you again.  I'm counting the minutes, really.  Have an enjoyable night! 10:19 PM

Bianca: I will darling.  Xoxo.  10:19 PM

Mark:
Dear Bianca,

It was great to connect with you tonight. I am still trying to come to terms with the unfathomable connection we experience. I’m going to bed here in Manchester with a smile on my face and completely embedded into this thick pink cloud… It’s rather exhilarating and I am just allowing myself to enjoy it thoroughly.

I have just made a reservation for us at Piora (430 Hudson St.) for Sunday at 5:30. It’s a really cute Michelin stared Korean-Italian fusion restaurant. Apparently, it’s all the rage and I have never been to a Korean-Italian joint… Please have a look at it, as the menu looks a tad edgy. If you find it too experimental, please let me know and I will find another place.

Tomorrow, my first meeting is at 7:45, and from that point on, back to back meetings till I board my flight to NYC. It will be an entertaining day, I am certain. Regardless, by having you in my thoughts, regardless of what I am doing, will undoubtedly ensure that I will be in a good space and happy.

Despite the distance, the way I feel about you, I have the impression that one by one the nights between our separated cities (or our separated lives in NYC) are joined to the night that unites us. Ecstatic, that’s how I feel about what is developing between us. I just hope that one day you can connect with the same feelings, and this hope stems from the fact that what I am experiencing is rather unique, fulfilling and thoroughly enjoyable, if somewhat scary.

I trust that your dinner went well and that you are having an enjoyable time.

I’m going to close my eyes now.

Missing you dearly,

Mark

PS.: How can you be so incredibly sexy, even in the way you text....... You'll drive me completely insane!  11:16 PM

Bianca: Piora  sounds wonderful... although the only thing I really want to taste that evening is you.  I hope you have a good evening and I miss you dearly (I enjoy your messages, they always make me smile) …my body is missing every inch of you, Doctor…  11:49 PM

Mark:
Dear Bianca,

I hope that when this message reaches you, you are having a good and restful night. I have just arrived in Manchester, and despite the seat (old AA plane business seats are not that great), my flight was restful.

I fell asleep thinking about you, and the connection I felt with you on Tuesday, and how much my life has changed in such a brief period of time - last Sunday I did not even know you. Today all I can think of (and I mean it) is how I can have the most interesting and edifying experiences with you, how can I help achieve what you have set out to do, when I am going to see your smile again, when I will hear your laughter and when I will experience your scent, your touch and your sweetness.

On Tuesday, at some point, while lying on bed, I asked you to look at me, and I lost myself in your eyes. At that moment, I did not know to what extent I was myself and to what extent I just wanted to cease to exist and just be part of you. It was such a profound and intense experience.
I'm elated that both of us seem to be on the same wavelength in regards to how we would like to approach what we have, as if we were vibrating in unison. This is so incredibly exciting.

As we have discussed, this time, unlike in previous experiences in my life, I am being absolutely transparent and vulnerable. This is not easy for me, given my past experiences in life. I just kindly ask you to be gentle with me and understanding when I find myself a bit lost - I am just a man learning how to fall...
My dearest Bianca, I will be missing you dearly here in Manchester, and am counting the minutes till I see you on Sunday. I have an uncanny feeling that the experience will be perhaps as intense and riveting as Tuesday's.

Have the sweetest of dreams, gorgeous.

I miss you,

Mark

PS. Manchester is rain sodden... Quelle surprise. This city is as pretty as the back of a fridge! 1:54 AM

Bianca: Good morning/afternoon, Mark
I can't wait to see you on Sunday.  You will be on my mind.  You are a wonderful man.
I find myself wanting to tell you little tidbits of my day all the time ☺ the good little things.  Good luck with your busy day!  I will try to be as productive on this side of the pond.  Xoxo  7:48 AM

Mark: As soon as my meetings are over here, let's have a chat about the plans for Sunday. I just want to be with you, no matter what we will be doing.  11:42 AM

Bianca: Sounds great.  And good luck  12:29 PM

Mark:  Bianca, I've just got to the hotel and will have to leave for dinner at 7:30 here.  If you feel like going to the spa on Sunday prior to seeing me, I would be delighted to give that to you as a pressie.  As for our time together, just let me know what you'd like to do. I'm afraid however that it will be very hard for me to keep my hands off of you...  1:00 PM

Bianca: I agree.  Been thinking about you and kissing and touching you all over.  2:14 PM

Mark: Likewise.  2:14 PM

Bianca: How sweet, I'd be delighted for some spa time.  2:14 PM

Mark: What can I book for you?  2:14 PM

Bianca: I might just pop in for a massage?  You are too kind.
Hope your trip is fruitful.  You mentioned positive things are happening. I was happy to hear that.  2:15 PM

Mark: Which massage and where? I'd love to book it for you, gorgeous.  To be honest, Bianca, I feel so incredibly connected to you.... I know we've only met twice, but I feel like if I knew you for ages and that you would be the girlfriend I've always dreamt to have.... 2:18 PM

Bianca: :)  2:22 PM

Mark: Off to dinner now...Please let me know how Mark can get you to be very relaxed prior to seeing him on Sunday.
I'll get it booked as soon as I return to my hotel room.  2:36 PM

Bianca: I'd love a massage.  Kisses darling.  2:37 PM

Mark: ❤  I just want to see you radiant on Sunday.  2:38 PM

Bianca: You will.  5:16 PM

Mark: How are you today?  I'm just back at my hotel room.  5:33 PM

Bianca: Hi dearest.  My day was good, I was productive.  My friend Lauren just left.  We had a little sip of the pretty pink champagne you gave me.  5:39 PM

Mark: Did you like It?  5:41 PM

Bianca: It was perfect :)  5:47 PM

Mark: What's the plan for Sunday? Where should we meet?  6:06 PM

Bianca: When are you free?  Can you escape downtown to see me Sunday in Tribeca or Soho?  6:10 PM

Mark: Absolutely.  I will go to any place you suggest.  I just want to see you.  Even if it was just to admire you from a distance
❤  It is that crazy…
Darling, I'm lying here on my bed
And must admit that I do not have the purest of thoughts in my mind.  6:36 PM

Bianca: Do tell me your thoughts....The impure ones are my fave.  6:40 PM

Mark: I imagined you here, lying in the bathtub.  6:41 PM

Bianca: Yes.... 6:41 PM

Mark: And me just admiring your naked beauty.  The way you look at me. 6:41 PM

Bianca: I want you...right now. 6:42 PM

Mark: That mysterious and immensely sexy way that is so much you.  I would come close to the bathtub.  Kneel down by your side.  Start kissing you, gently to begin with…6:42 PM

Bianca: And I would splash you just to be a little bit evil... 6:44 PM

Mark: That would be my cue.  To undress as well.  You notice that just by contemplating the scene and the kiss.  I'm already hard and ready.  6:44 PM

Bianca: I wouldn't be able to keep my hands off you.
I've been thinking about how great your hard cock tasted in my mouth.  6:45 PM

Mark: We feel our bodies touching each other inside the warm water.  We don't say anything.  Just stare into each other's eyes.  6:46 PM

Bianca: You have the most perfect cock.... 6:46 PM

Mark: I reach out under the water and start playing with your clit.  By the way, your taste is unrivaled.  May I confess something to you? 6:47 PM

Bianca: Yes please.  6:48 PM

Mark: I touched myself thinking about you yesterday.  6:48 PM

Bianca: Same here... 6:49 PM

Mark: Really?  6:49 PM

Bianca: I want to feel you inside me right now.  6:49 PM

Mark: And just by typing these lines…I'm really hard.  What is the spell you have put on me?  6:49 PM

Bianca: I would absolutely satisfy you if I was there.
I’d do anything…6:49 PM

Mark: There are so many things I want from you.  6:50 PM

Bianca: I'm yours…  6:50 PM

Mark: You are driving me crazy now, Miss Harper.  You know that you have me in the palm of your hand.  If you really want to know what I wanted now…. I want you taking me in your mouth.  Looking at me in the eyes
And doing it slowly.  As you did on Tuesday…6:51 PM

Bianca: I loved tasting you.  It was perfect.  6:52 PM

Mark: And the way you touched me gave me butterflies.  6:52 PM

Bianca: Fireworks. 6:53 PM

Mark: But the best part for me was to have you…on top of me
Just dictating exactly what and how things should happen.  I loved it.
The way your pussy felt around me.
The way I felt that I was yours.
Darling.  It was only the first time.  It can only get better.  6:53 PM

Bianca: So incredible.  6:55 PM

Mark: How busy are you now gorgeous?  6:55 PM

Bianca: I've got to dash off to a dinner....otherwise I'd lie in bed with my hands between my legs thinking about seeing you again. 6:56 PM

Mark: Too bad. 6:56 PM

Bianca: Indeed. 6:56 PM

Mark: I have one request for you for Sunday. 6:56 PM

Bianca: Yes?  6:58 PM

Mark: I just want you to be yourself.  6:58 PM

Bianca: Only for you.... ;) 6:59 PM

Mark: Because that is the woman I am beginning to fall madly in love with, despite the fact I've seen her only twice.  And Bianca, it's such a wonderful feeling... 6:59 PM

Bianca: Mark. You are perfect. 7:00 PM

Mark: No, I am just a man learning how to fall... 7:00 PM

Mark: Good morning, Bianca.  Are you having a productive photo shoot? 9:18 AM

Bianca: Good morning.  Yes we are!  11:17 AM

Mark: I'm losing my will to live.  This conference call is killing me.  11:37 AM

Bianca:  Just remember our fun at the Roxy last night… 11:37 AM

Mark:  Memories from yesterday are rather vivid in my mind...... I simply ADORE your scent and how your skin feels........ 11:38 AM

Bianca: You too.  Funny how we clicked.  I couldn't keep my hands off you. 11:42 AM

Mark: And I did not want you to leave yesterday at all.
I would have loved to have spent the night with you.... Waking up by your side and seeing you opening your eyes in the morning would have been a wonderful experience... 11:45 AM

Bianca: I agree.  Looking forward to a trip away with you.  11:56 AM

Mark: That will be a dream...I'm checking the dates of my ad board meetings in Europe in Jan and Feb. It'll be great to take you with me.  12:02 PM

Bianca: Yes please!   1:04 PM

Mark: It'd be either Britain or Belgium.
I wish you could have come with me tonight to London to be honest.  1:21 PM

Bianca: I know.  Me too.  Britain or Belgium, just let me know.  1:30 PM

Mark: One has just been confirmed. The one in Belgium is only on March 22nd. It's been postponed. The one in Britain should be in the next 30 days.  1:36 PM

Bianca: Lovely!  2:15 PM

Mark: You are absolutely stunning, Bianca... Just seeing your photo gave me butterflies.
Seriously! How can you be so pretty?
And darling, the camera loves you.  2:23 PM

Bianca: Thank you baby...we got a lot done at the office today.  3:56 PM

Mark: Great.  I'd love to see the result of the photo shoot.
By the way, I'm definitely available on Sunday from 5:30 on.  4:06 PM

Bianca: Looking forward to our rendezvous.
Wish I was on your flight to London this evening, snuggled under the blanket kissing you.  4:10 PM

Mark: Likewise. I'm already dreaming of the two of us in one of the two sitters in first class just kissing and enjoying the champagne.  4:19 PM

Bianca: Soon.  4:20 PM

Mark: One hopes. Still have to pack. Going home in a minute and then dashing to the airport.  4:21 PM

Bianca: No one packed for you?  Good luck ✈  4:25 PM

Mark: Nope. I need to do it and my flight leaves in 3 hours.  4:26 PM

Bianca: You'll make it.  4:26 PM

Mark: On the cab... What a crazy day.  Needless to say that the contrast between yesterday and today could not be starker... 5:07 PM

Bianca: Life=Valleys and peaks.... 5:08 PM

Mark: On my way to the airport. I hope I can make it to the plane. A bit of a chaotic day........... Nevertheless, I have many things to be grateful for, including your friendship and the knowledge that I'll see you on Sunday.
Bianca, I was wondering if you have been to Sleep No More?  5:10 PM

Bianca:  No darling I haven't.  What is it?  5:16 PM

Mark:  There are rave reviews about it.  I really want to take you there next week.  It’s an interactive performance based on Hamlet at the McKittrick Hotel.  Here is the link: www.sleepnomorenyc.com.  5:19 PM

Bianca: Looks very cool.  5:21 PM

Mark: If you fancy going, we can go next week...I’d get VIP tickets for us.  5:22 PM

Bianca: Wednesday is good.   I’m pretty open next week.
By the way, it's been hard to fully concentrate today thinking about being on top of you last night .... 5:26 PM

Mark: I'm afraid I had a very similar experience.  And by the way, you asked me yesterday if I'd be ok meeting your friends. The answer is absolutely. I'd love to.  5:28 PM

Bianca: ☺ I'd love that.  5:31 PM

Mark: I'm enjoying every second of this, Bianca.  5:32 PM

Bianca: Me too.  I haven't stopped smiling.  5:32 PM

Mark: Thank you so much for allowing yourself to be yourself while with me.  I know the courage that it takes.... 5:33 PM

Bianca: You make it easy.  5:33 PM

Mark: I was thinking to myself today that yesterday's experience was so special that I really do not care as to how our sanctimonious society would perceive us. Some things in life are truly beyond good and evil, and this is one of them.  5:36 PM

Bianca: I agree.  That went through my mind as well today.  5:41 PM

Mark: You are fantastic, gorgeous.  Truly.  You brought a smile to my face all day.  5:47 PM

Bianca: And you to mine.  5:47 PM

Mark: I may miss my flight.  5:59 PM

Bianca: Flight at 8, right?  6:00 PM

Mark: 7:35.  I may miss it.......If it is, I'll attribute it to the universe.  I did my absolute best to be here on time.  6:02 PM

Bianca: Yes darling.  Good luck.  Sending you good vibes.  6:02 PM

Mark: Thank you. You saw my diary today...... 6:03 PM

Bianca: I did, you are a very busy man.  Everyone wants a little of you because you are brilliant and talented.  You offer so much.  Sometimes it must get difficult to manage everything.  6:04 PM

Mark: You are most definitely too kind. I am finally (almost) at the airport.  6:10 PM

Bianca: Well done!   By the way, I think I need a spa day soon.  New York can be so stressful sometimes.  6:33 PM

Mark: Well, we could organise to go to one together.
There are some spas for couples that are not too bad.  6:35 PM

Bianca: That would be nice.  6:36 PM

Mark: So you have a mission.  Choose a place and we'll go to on our date after Sleep No More.  If you prefer the spa first, it's also your call.  6:36 PM

Bianca: How sweet are you?  You get an extra kiss when you're back.  6:38 PM

Mark: Let me know what you'd prefer.  I'll get it organised…
I’ll live for Sunday… If my messages are too much, Bianca, please let me know, ok?  6:39 PM

Bianca: No they are not.  Not at all.  I like you.  And I like that you are open with me.  I look forward to your messages.  7:08 PM

Mark: One point that I did not have a chance of conveying to you yesterday is that I would love if we could be authentic to ourselves and let our relationship grow organically. While lying on my bed last night, I made a conscious decision that I will just accept my feelings as they are, whatever they are.  7:10 PM

Bianca: I agree.  Lets try to stay present.  I enjoy every minute with you.  7:11 PM

Mark: I will not come to see you with any preconceptions of what our relationship could and should be
And if my 'gut' feeling is confirmed, it's my responsibility.
I would not ask you to reciprocate or to feel in the same way.  7:11 PM

Bianca: You can't help your feelings.  No one can.  7:12 PM

Mark: I just lived in this body for too long not to know what the risks are, and am happy to take them. 7:12 PM

Bianca: It is risky for sure.  But life is a beautiful journey.  Valleys, peaks and all.  I miss you already.  7:13 PM

Mark: I'm just being honest with you and making myself vulnerable. I just ask you one thing: just don't hurt me deliberately, ok?
I miss you dearly… In a rather visceral manner.  7:13 PM

Bianca: I couldn’t ever deliberately hurt you.  I care too much.  7:13 PM

Mark: It's an honest and sincere request.  7:14 PM

Bianca: I can’t believe that this time last week, I hadn’t even met you yet.  Funny how quickly life can change.  I promise you one thing, you will always get honesty and respect from me.
But I also promise you that our connection is mutual and real.
I haven't even taken the time to contemplate the risks.  I'm too high on feeling happy at the moment.  7:14 PM

Mark: I'm too analytical not to think about it. But I'm entirely ready to throw caution to the wind and live in the moment.
I have an uncanny feeling that beautiful things will emerge.  7:16 PM

Bianca: I do too.  Promise me one thing?
That you will please live for the moment.  Happiness is what matters most.  7:17 PM

Mark: Absolutely, Bianca. You do have my word.  You are so incredibly special.  Taking off soon. I miss you, Bianca.  7:18 PM

Bianca: I miss you too.  Have a safe trip.  7:33 PM

Mark: I do too. I adore the tactile sensations that come by touching your skin. Your scent........ 7:35 PM

Bianca: Last night....might have been some of the best sex I've ever had in my life.  7:36 PM

Mark: As I told you, it was the first time I did not feel lonely in years.  Years and years.  If souls exist, I felt that ours were intertwined yesterday.  7:36 PM

Bianca: Yes yes…And my soul came three times.  7:37 PM

Mark: I like your humor.  A lot really.  Taking off very soon. I will be counting the minutes till I see you on Sunday!  A big kiss.  7:38 PM

Bianca: Yes dear.  Let me know when you've arrived safely
Safe journey.  Xoxoxoxo, kiss, hugs, and more..... 7:38 PM

Mark: And apologies for the sometimes over sentimental comments. I reckon I may have inherited in my Lusitanian blood a good dose of lyricism in addition to my freckles ❤  7:40 PM

Bianca: I dig it.  7:42 PM

Mark: :-) kiss ta ta  7:44 PM

Bianca: Kisses baby  7:45 PM

Mark: Apologies for the long sappy letter.  Have a good night of sleep.  Missing you. 1:35 AM

Bianca: I was just thinking of you and couldn't sleep... so I woke up and just read this.  What a smile you just brought to my face.  ❤❤❤
I miss you too.  Life is full of surprises. Meeting you was one of them and I too believe this is the beginning something special.
Kisses to you 4:33 AM

Mark: Bianca,  I woke up rather early with you featuring prominently in my mind
How are you today?
I wish you a thoroughly enjoyable day. 7:18 AM

Bianca: Hello handsome....I woke up the same… good morning.  Wish I was in your arms now. 7:32 AM

Mark: I wish I had waken up in your arms... Bianca, I had a look at your portfolio that you sent me last night.  Your furniture designs are absolutely amazing.  I'd love to put you in touch with the right people in Manhattan who would be great clientele for you. 8:01 AM

Bianca: You're very kind.  It means a lot.  Men in the past have been quick to criticize me.
But you are so sweet to try and help. 8:17 AM

Mark: We shall find a strategy for you to enter the right circles.  Why should you be criticised?
Rather you should be nurtured. You have talent, ambition and desire. 8:17 AM

Bianca: I wish I could cuddle up with you under my cozy warm duvet.  And thank you.  It means a lot.
You are a very kind man. 8:23 AM

Mark: I have experienced sufficiently in life to be in a position of leaving a prison of self-centeredness... I love to see those around me doing incredibly well.
And I reckon that if we are shrewd enough, in a year's time your plateau in your career is over...8:29 AM

Bianca: I agree.  I trust your judgement and appreciate your advice and help 8:31 AM

Mark: Kiss. Busy day today.  A million meetings back to back. 8:43 AM

Bianca: Your calendar is missing something...
Making love to me for 3 hours isn't on there 8:45 AM

Mark: Well, I wish that could be an option........8:46 AM

Bianca: Soon. 8:46 AM

Mark: When will we see each other again? 8:46 AM

Bianca: When are you free, darling? 8:46 AM

Mark: Let me know when it'd be best for you
And I shall make myself available. 8:47 AM

Bianca: You're back from London this weekend correct?  If so what about a little Sunday fun?
If not I'm pretty open next week.  Mostly in the evenings. 8:47 AM

Mark: How would Sunday at 5:30pm sound to you? Or Wednesday evening?  Whatever is most convenient for you. 8:50 AM

Bianca: Sunday if you aren't too jet lagged? 8:51 AM

Mark: That sounds like a plan.  I can hardly wait. 8:53 AM

Bianca: I know me too.  Will feel like ages until then. 8:53 AM

Mark: Absolutely.  Apologies for the long email last night.  But I couldn't help myself. 8:54 AM

Bianca: Don't apologize it made my day :) 8:54 AM

Mark: I felt amazing yesterday.  Very much so. 8:55 AM

Bianca: Me too.  Funny how we felt the same.  Very rare.  It's not easy for me to open up and just enjoy myself with a man.  You make me feel so comfortable and happy. 8:55 AM

Mark: Yes, so rare, so special and fulfilling.  Bianca, I fear intimate emotional connection more than death.  Yesterday when you were resting your head on my chest, it was probably the first time I did not feel lonely in over 2 years. 8:56 AM

Bianca: Let's let go of fears, Mark.  Live in the moment. 8:58 AM

Mark: Absolutely.  Have an abundant and fruitful day
I'll be thinking about you gorgeous!  Kiss 8:58 AM

Dearest Bianca,

I would like to express my gratitude to you for the wonderful time together today. There are some experiences in life that will never be forgotten and today I had one of them.

The way I felt while with you was mystifying and disconcerting, because it was the first time in years when I felt a true intellectual, emotional and physical connection with someone, and we have only met each other twice.

Your skin, your scent, your smile, your gracious moves and gestures, your eyes (and how many times did I lose myself in your eyes on Sunday and today?).... These are fantastic, undoubtedly; however I must admit that these are not your best attributes. I would contend that your intellect, wit, enthusiasm, ambition and creativity while being compassionate and approachable are unique. I love your mysterious nature, however, despite the mystery, I'm 100% comfortable with you.

I am afraid that the future may have something rather special in store for us, and since seeing you on Sunday and today, I have an uncanny feeling that nothing is out of reach. I am feeling happy, a feeling that has always been rather elusive to me, and this time the happiness I’m enjoying is akin to the joy an infant or child expresses while living in the moment.

I'm afraid that the fear I expressed to you that I might fall in love with you is thoroughly justified. I am not prepared to live my life on the basis of fear. Hence, I will just accept my feelings as they are. You and the relationship we are developing are way too important for me to allow my befuddled mind to be guided by fear.

My dearest Bianca, you are a special and unique woman. And this clumsy boy can only think about you. My days, till our next encounter, will be long. But the joy of meeting you again, I'm absolutely certain, will be unparalleled.

I wish you a good night and an abundant Wednesday morning.

Missing you dearly, 

Mark 12:00 pm

Mark: Bianca, what an immense pleasure to meet you today. I must admit that I would love to spend more time with you even today.
I have an uncanny feeling that this is the beginning of something rather special. 4:20 PM

Bianca: I really enjoyed my time with you. What an interesting beautiful mind you have. 4:21 PM

Mark: And what a fascinating woman you are.
I just took my MA profile down. Apologies if I came across like a smitten 14 year old today. 4:22 PM

Bianca: Not even close. You are one of the most mentally engaging people I've ever met. 4:23 PM

Mark: You are way too kind, Bianca. Where shall we meet on Tuesday afternoon? 4:27 PM

Bianca: I don't know. What do you think, dear? 4:29 PM

Mark: Whatever you'd like to do. You are more of a local than I am 4:58 PM

Bianca: Let's meet at the Roxy Hotel in Tribeca. They have a great bar. Say, 2:30? 6:01 PM

Mark: Sounds great. Enjoy your dinner this evening! 6:15 PM

Bianca: Thank you sweetheart. I had a great time today. Xoxo have a good evening  9:15 PM

Mark: Hi Bianca, so that you know my intentions in advance. If we do find that we do click and feel mutually attracted, I would really be keen to start an arrangement and take my profile down. It will be great to have a chance of meeting you today at last.

Bianca: I feel the same. I don't like having the profile on there. Guys on there are a little creepy. Can I ask you something? I just noticed you aren't background checked. Is there a reason for this? I just want to be sure I'm safe.

Mark: Why should I get a background check? Look, I'll give you my real name and you can look me up. I'm Dr. Mark Reilly.

Bianca: Wow. Just googled you. You're kind of well known for your medical career? That's pretty cool.

Mark: Thank you for your kind words, Bianca. I love what I do and simply love helping women.
I am looking for a single arrangement, as the two previous long term ones I had were edifying and immensely enjoyable for both parties. Did you have a chance about the specifics of what you'd like to have in an arrangement?

Bianca: I was thinking if we click...we could meet once a week for a fun date and have a good time together. Obviously I have a job but it's been a struggle to support myself. I remember putting that I needed moderate support, which was $5k a month I believe? I had someone offer $10k but really I would rather it be less with someone who I connect with more. You seem very sweet.

Mark: Bianca, this is well within the realm of what I can offer. Hence, from that perspective we are good to go. Can you travel or would you be interested in travelling? I travel a lot internationally and 95% of the time, I go solo.

Bianca: My bags are packed

Mark: I'd love to have some company with me. Someone I really connect with. I have an uncanny feeling that we'll connect. I may well be wrong, but that's how I feel.

Bianca: Maybe it was meant to be with the timing of things

Mark: I need to explain something to you, however. I am not after a purely sexual arrangement. What I am after is that sparkle that I used to have in my life...It's a tall order, I accept that. But I believe that if the right person is found, anything is possible...If we are crazy enough (and plan things well enough) there would not be anything that would prevent us from doing it... I mean it. If you feel like coming to any of the trips, it is absolutely do-able. My former arrangement went to Amsterdam, Berlin, London and Turks and Caicos with me.

Bianca: Sounds like heaven

Mark: One last point that I need to make and it's very important for me... the most important element to the success of relationships of this nature is rigorous honesty. I am absolutely certain that you have received hundreds of messages in that website and that there are many other blokes with a much greater financial fire power than I have. What I can offer is something that is possibly a tad more intellectually challenging and honest than most other men there can.
May I ask you something? I know it's rather presumptuous at this stage. But if we do click, would you be open to meet up again before I go to London on Wed?

Bianca: I'd be up for meeting again before Wed. If we click that is

Mark: Excellent. I'll see you in an hour at the Carlisle.

Bianca: Sounds great

Mark: Bianca, what an immense pleasure to meet you today. I must admit that I would love to spend more time with you even today. I have an uncanny feeling that this is the beginning of something rather special.

Mark: Hey this is Mark from Making Arrangement. I'm in London at the moment, enjoying the fantastic weather. Delighted to meet you.

Bianca: That sounds great. London not always the best weather but I still love it there. Let's connect when you are back. Do u have an accent?

Mark: Yes I do. It's a Dutch accent I'm afraid. Sorry if that is a problem.

Bianca: That's ok, accents are cute!

Mark: I'm delighted that you don't see it as a problem. You are an interior designer correct? I'd love to hear more about what you do.

Bianca: Yes I am. I love my work. I actually set up a profile on Making Arrangement last night if you can believe it.

Mark: I came back to MA after 14 months away. I'm interested in finding one person and settling. I feel we have a lot of potential to be honest. Before we move forward, I would like to remind you that I am married. If that is a problem for you, please do let me know.

Bianca: Perhaps we do have potential, but we would have to meet in person. I saw on your profile that you are married. That is ok.

Mark: As for my profession, I'm a physician, a scientist and one of my hobbies is to produce films. I reckon we are looking for something similar. Have you ever had an arrangement before?

Bianca: No...not really. How do they work?

Mark: In your profile you state moderate support ($5k a month.) I'd be totally comfortable with that.

Bianca: How often would you like to meet?

Mark: Once, maybe twice a week. I'm a rather busy man. And I'm sure you value your time as well. What would be the ideal arrangement for you? Don't be shy. Let me know what your views are and I will honestly tell you whether I would be in a position of offering you what you deserve. I apologize I'm very pragmatic and direct. And by the way, I simply adore the fact that you are an ambitious career woman. That's absolutely formidable.

Bianca: Thank you that's very sweet. And $5k a month would really would help me to have some breathing room financially. Above all else, I love to have a good time. I think chemistry is very important, otherwise this will all feel too transactional.

Mark: I agree. Shall we set up a time to meet when I'm back from London? Sunday?

Bianca: That sounds good. Brunch?

Mark: Yes, how about we meet at the Carlisle Hotel. Going to bed now. I'm really excited to meet you on Sunday!

Bianca: Me too. Goodnight

Mark: Good Morning. I shall see you at the bar of The Carlisle hotel on Sunday at 3:30. I must reiterate that I am very, very interested.