Mark: Thank you for tonight. You are simply indescribable.
Apologies for the melodrama. I want to be this cool guy, but if I am myself, as I want to be with you, the fact of the matter is that I'm much more vulnerable and fragile than I wished I would be. You are a very special woman and I do really like you very very much. I want this to be as I described it to you last week: something edifying and joyous. 10:37 PM
Bianca: As I said when I was climbing on top of you... you're so cool. With you it's easy to be myself. And that's what makes you so cool. So keep being real with me. That's why I like you. That's why I'm getting to know you.
Stop trying so hard. Stop predicting the outcome of all of this. This isn't a puzzle. You're highly intelligent. That's undeniable. Just let this evolve. 10:40 PM
Mark: Thank you. I know it isn't just a puzzle. It's my second nature, Bianca. I have to stop analyzing things so much and I will. You are so right. 10:41 PM
Bianca: Let me be your lover and your friend. I have feelings for you. But am not going anywhere. 10:43 PM
Mark: I want to be your friend and I feel so close to you. So close. 10:43 PM
Bianca: I don't expect you to leave your marriage. I'm just here. Present with you. So just be here with me too. Ok? Nothing you have told me has scared me off or pushed me away. 10:43 PM
Mark: Absolutely. Sorry for being so complicated. 10:44 PM
Bianca: Don't be a self fulfilling prophecy. You predicted tonight that you would try and sabotage things at some point. That you’d find a way to destroy us and push me away. I think you can overcome that. Maybe I’m wrong. 10:44 PM
Mark: I will try to break the pattern. You are so right. So so right. 10:44 PM
Bianca: Don't focus on past mistakes. Don't tell me what happens "every time" with women. Because then you are basically willing it to happen. 10:45 PM
Mark: I know. 10:45 PM
Bianca: And if that is the outcome you choose, then so be it. But that's a choice. Everything is a choice. 10:45 PM
Mark: I'm ashamed of being like that. Pushing people that are close to me away. You are right. I will start accepting that I may deserve being with you. 10:45 PM
Bianca: Stop being so hard on yourself. I like YOU.
I'm not here because I like your fucking awards and your prestige as a doctor. 10:46 PM
Mark: I know. And perhaps that is a first in my life. 10:47 PM
Bianca: The man you are when you take your glasses off and laugh with me in my bed. I love that we can just be ourselves. Be present with me. Please. 10:47 PM
Mark: I adore it as well. Thanks for bringing me back. I am really grateful to you. 10:47 PM
Bianca: At first I was drawn to what you've accomplished. You know what? Today I couldn't care less. Sorry to say...but my favorite thing about you? Is watching you laugh at something silly. It's the best. We wear a lot of masks. But underneath everything you are really fantastic. 10:48 PM
Mark: You are a wonderful woman. Truly. I'm stuck for words. 10:50 PM
Bianca: That's fine. You're not on a stage in front of 8,000 people with the sound not working. It's just me. 10:50 PM
Mark: You are much more important than those 8,000 idiots. 10:51 PM
Bianca: One week ago, you came into my life and enriched it more than I could have imagined possible. You are wonderful. You are not "fucked up". You have to stop saying that. Because you're only perpetuating your own cycle. 10:52 PM
Mark: You are absolutely right. I will focus on the positives. And live in the moment. That's what's making me happy. Why should I change it?
Do I want to be where I was 8 days ago? Fuck no. 10:56 PM
Bianca: Making love to you tonight... Was incredible. 10:58 PM
Mark: It was. I am flabbergasted with the way you have touched me. You've touched me in a way that I have not felt before today. Not only physically. I felt we were vibrating in unison. Not surprisingly we had an orgasm together. And darling it was so fucking strong. I’m still dizzy to be honest.
Just had a shower. I am so madly in love with you Bianca. I'm sorry but I am. 11:14 PM
Bianca: Baby. I have much I want to tell you. I think tonight we really connected. I could feel it when we were making love. Just be present. 11:19 PM
Mark: Bianca, I felt exactly the same way. Close in a rather complete manner with you tonight. I cannot wait till I see you again… 11:56 PM