Mark: By the way, have I ever told you that my Italian grandfather was a politician? 7:03 PM
Bianca: Yes you did. That's very cool. 7:04 PM
Mark: But he has told me all the rotten things and dirty deals that take place in politics. As for my political views, I am what people in Britain call a champagne socialist. I am super lefty. You guys in America would probably call me a commie. But I love my luxury items and my lifestyle, paradoxically. 7:04 PM
Bianca: Haha oh my conservative father would LOVE you. 7:06 PM
Mark: I believe in free education, health care and a network of benefits for the poorest. We all have so much - abject poverty makes me immediately cry. Tomorrow I can only see you at 5:30 because I'll be doing charity work prior to that helping addicts who live in total deprivation now. That's how I keep my sanity. Helping others who have the same problem but did not have resources to lift themselves out of the mess of their lives. 7:06 PM
Bianca: That’s amazing Mark. 7:08 PM
Mark: It's for a selfish reason, Bianca. Since I started doing that I feel alive and valued again. And feel that I am helping others find the same solution as I did. It's a wonderful feeling. And by taking the actions I started taking in Jan 2012, my life changed completely. Had you met me prior to that, you'd have hated me. I was so arrogant and self-centered. I despise the man I used to be. And I used people as if they were objects. And bought everything I wanted in my life, people included. But for the last 4 years, my life has been the opposite. I value every being in the world even if others find no value in them. 7:08 PM
Bianca: I think I like you a little more now. 7:13 PM
Mark: You are too sweet. But it's true, Bianca. With one exception and one exception only. BORING PEOPLE. And perhaps tea party members… 7:17 PM
Bianca: :) 7:17 PM
Mark: I miss you so much gorgeous. 7:18 PM
Bianca: I miss you too, sexy. 7:18 PM
Mark: You see how much our relationship has changed in the last 18 hours? 7:19 PM
Bianca: Yes. I do. And I love it. 7:19 PM
Mark: The speed and intensity with which this is happening is wonderful. I'm loving it too. And yes, tomorrow, let's just spend time together. Ok?
On a serious note now, have a lot of fun tonight. If you need anything, you know how to reach me. 7:19 PM
Bianca: Thank you baby. I miss you mucho. 8:28 PM
Mark: Likewise... 8:28 PM
Bianca: Can't wait to wrap my arms around you. And my lips. And my legs. 8:28 PM
Mark: I feel so close to you…faraway yet so close. Have a lot of fun. Kiss! 8:28 PM
Bianca: Kiss kiss baby 8:46 PM
Mark: Dearest Bianca,
I was planning to work till late, however I am afraid I am so jet lagged that I can barely keep my eyes open.
I am afraid I am terribly sorry for your past experiences. I cannot comprehend, in my rather simple way of seeing the world, how a woman as special, intelligent, witty and determined like you, found herself in a situation like the one you've described. It must be a true ordeal to live in a gilded cage and/ or with someone who instead of providing a nurturing environment where your potentials could be realised, only sought to bring you down. I am so terribly sorry for the terrible experience, but I can also see how this has helped you come to become the wonderful woman you are now. As Nietzsche one said: that what does not kill us makes us stronger.
Today I endeavoured to be as transparent as one possibly can and revealed aspects and facts of my life that are unbeknownst to everyone in my life other than you and two other individuals. Revealing them to you neither caused me shame nor triggered a desire to distance myself from you. In fact, after hearing you elements of your story and having a chance of sharing mine, I feel much closer to you and my desire to see you tomorrow, to talk, kiss, cuddle, listen to your jokes, talk about your future plans remains unabated.
I am so excited to see you tomorrow, my dearest. I can hardly wait to see your smile again, feel your scent, steal kisses from you and share laughs with you. You are most special, my love.
I wish you a truly enjoyable and abundant night with your mates. Have a lot of fun, as you deserve it thoroughly.
I miss you dearly, but trust that the joy of seeing you again will more than make up for the void I currently feel now.
Love,
Mark
PS.: I simply cannot stop thinking about you.
PPS: I hope that you do not find yourself in trouble with your mates. Although I will be dozing m/ sleeping, I'll be checking my messages. Should you need anything, and I mean it, please let me know.
PPPS.: My feelings for you feel even stronger today. Just tell me the spell that you've put on me, because it does work...
Days without you are very very long…11:21 PM